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第四章 命運(4)

所屬目錄:何以笙簫默    何以笙簫默作者:顧漫

“不等了,其實我只是想來看看她過得好不好,然后,有一些事情想問她。”默笙頓了一頓,“現在我已經知道她過得不錯,那些事情,我也突然不想問了。”

結局已經如此,原因已經不再重要了。

“黃阿姨,謝謝你。請不要說我來過了。”

臨走的時候問黃阿姨要了父親公墓的地址,金雞山A區157座,好像住宅地址一樣的牌號。

不是清明這樣拜祭的時節,金雞山上幾乎沒有人,默笙坐在父親的墓碑旁,頭靠在碑上,就像父親在世的時候父女倆聊天的姿勢。

默笙現在也在和爸爸聊天:“爸爸,這么久才來看你,你不會怪我吧?其實我一直不想回來……”

“我可能太懦弱了,接受不了。為什么明明我走的時候還是一個人,現在卻是一塊碑?”

“我老覺得,只要我不回國,你就還活著似的,我還記得我上飛機前你給我買的芝士餅干……那時候你騙我說讓我去美國看看好不好,不好再回來,可是我覺得一點都不好,卻回不來……”

公墓照片上和默笙有幾分相似的年輕人自始至終親切地微笑著,默笙抓著衣袖擦了擦照片:“爸爸,這張照片還是你大學時候的吧?別以為用這么年輕的照片,就可以冒充年輕鬼。”

山間籠罩著薄薄的雨霧,四周寂靜得仿佛世間再沒有聲音,默笙敲了敲墓碑:“爸爸你都不理我。”

沉默良久,默笙的眼睛漸漸變得像山間的霧一樣朦朧。“爸爸,他說,嗯,就是何以琛,你還記得吧,他說我們可以重新在一起……你覺得好嗎?”

自然沒人回答,過了一會,默笙低聲喃喃自語:“其實我也覺得不大好,他那么優秀,一直都有很多人喜歡,他可以找到更好的人。我們分開那么多年,之間有那么多陌生,重新在一起的話,只會矛盾重重,他很快就會對我失望透頂,他以前就經常對我失望……到時候如果再分手,我不知道自己會怎么樣,現在這樣子,起碼我已經習慣了……”

說到這里再也說不下去,不知過了多久,默笙輕輕地說:“我什么都很好,你不要擔心我……我要走了,爸爸。”

下山的時候,雨已經停了。在山腳回望那快要消失在夜色與薄霧中的山頭,仿佛已經是兩個世界。

回到城里天已經黑了,默笙看了看手機上的時間,看來只能明天再走了。到市區連問了幾家旅舍,都回答說已經客滿,最后找了家市中心價格昂貴的酒店住下來,洗好澡烘干衣服,睡覺還太早,便起身下樓。

酒店一出去就是Y市最繁華的貞觀路。Y市山青水秀,也是小有名氣的旅游城市,此時貞觀路上的游客還不少,默笙忽然想起,自己第一次在Y市見到以琛,就是在這條繁華的路上。

那時候他們已經是男女朋友,然而大一寒假放假回家的時候,以琛卻怎么都不肯給她家里的電話號碼,她當時又委屈又難過,哪有女朋友連男朋友家里的電話號碼都不知道的?分手前在火車站軟磨硬泡失敗后,默笙氣呼呼地掉頭就跑。

可沒跑幾步就后悔了,氣什么呢,也許再耍賴一下,以琛就心軟了呢。可是回頭看看,火車站前已經沒有以琛的身影了。

回到家就開始悶悶不樂,東西沒心思吃,電視看了也不知道在放什么,后來不知怎么異想天開,開始每天跑上街,想著也許會遇到以琛。

然后,竟然真的遇到了。

那是年后的一天,天空飄著小雪,他和彼時尚不認識的以玫在馬路對面走過,她那時根本反應不過來了,竟然真的遇到了,其實沒抱什么希望的,這個城市有那么多人……下一刻她已經飛快地沖過馬路,撲上去抱住他……

好像就是在這棵樹下,那個戴著毛茸茸白帽子的女孩,抱著那個因路人曖昧目光而尷尬的少年,興奮地大叫:“以琛,我就知道會遇到你的。我就知道!”

默笙閉了閉眼睛。

當他們之間已成往事,最難堪的便是一切清晰如昨。

她著了魔似的拿出相機,向那其實空無一人的地方,按下快門。

洗出來的照片上是空曠的馬路,無人走過,一片空白。

節后上班,默笙的工作更加忙碌起來。

只有小紅很閑,她一個欄目剛剛結束,正在空窗期,每天在默笙辦公室閑晃,操心她的終身大事。

“阿笙,你不能再這樣虛度下去了,要知道時間就是青春美貌,你現在找個男人那叫拯救社會,再過兩年出去就是殘害男同胞,而且……”小紅神秘兮兮地附耳,“現在比較符合生理規律哎,阿笙,你晚上難道不想躺在一個溫暖的懷抱里入眠?”

“小紅你……昨天又做那種夢了?”

“偶爾嘛!”假裝很害羞,臉紅低頭,搖晃身體,過了一會她嚴肅起來,“阿笙,你現在總算正常了,前段時間好像男人被搶了一樣。”

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35 條評論 發表在“第四章 命運(4)”上

  1. 說道:

    天真歲月不忍欺
    青春荒唐我不負你

  2. 說道:

    我們這邊也有一座山叫金雞山 也是埋人的。。。

  3. 郭家三妹說道:

    我真的無法用好看來評論這部小說,對于這部小說來說,好看這個詞語表達不出來深層意義,任何贊美的詞語都襯托不出這部小說的光環。

  4. 愛旭如秋說道:

    在那么多的小說里這部小說可以說是我的最愛了,起碼看了3、4遍,當聽說唐焉與鐘漢良出演這部劇的時候我的心就涼了,這么好看的小說怎么就不能好好的挑好演員來演呢,不用看也知道這部劇出來是多么的垃圾了,就像當初的會有天使替我愛你一樣,讓我感覺無望。。。

  5. 涼薄之心說道:

    額,還可以吧

  6. 阿曼說道:

    看到這里,沒什么特別的感覺啊。

  7. 鐘心為甯說道:

    這部小說很好看,并不是三言兩語就能夠把內心所有的贊美全表達出來太經典了!烏龜漫,加油!!!

  8. 小柚子說道:

    默笙 。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

  9. 愛她毀我你不配。說道:

    這部小說好看吖。只是閱讀不適合我,更期待電視劇版的。 很期待能有這么美好的愛情 也希望有這么一個他等著我。

  10. 匿名說道:

    有些感覺電視劇是呈現不出來的,看小說時想象一下反而更讓人心痛。

    • Jorja說道:

      Thank you, Tom. This relationship with my mother is really a gift and is one I am most grateful for.I understand about your dad struggling with his own ismesu…sase thing with my mother. She is who she is and where she is.I appreciate your kind comment.

  11. 他不愛我.說道:

    “我可能太懦弱了,接受不了。為什么明明我走的時候還是一個人,現在卻是一塊碑?”看到這句話,淚奔,我爸有一對雙胞胎女兒,從小到大最愛我們,現在我們長大了,卻很少陪在爸爸身邊,過年好好陪爸爸/

  12. 他.說道:

    “我可能太懦弱了,接受不了。為什么明明我走的時候還是一個人,現在卻是一塊碑?”看到這句話,淚奔,我爸有一對雙胞胎女兒,從小到大最愛我們,現在我們長大了,卻很少陪在爸爸身邊,過年好好陪爸爸/

  13. 聽'格林說道:

    很心疼,很有感覺,一樣

  14. ?Weirdo說道:

    這部小說我初中就買來看過了看了好幾遍 作者好棒!準備再看一遍哈哈

  15. 匿名說道:

    看著默笙對父親說的話,淚奔!離別時父女心情深,回來后卻陰陽兩隔。

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